I could die right now.

You could die right now.

People die all the time.  Seriously.  You could be driving and you might be an excellent driver, but it doesn't mean someone else won't run a red light and hit you.  You never know!  Anything could happen.

The interesting thing is we think we are going to live forever.  Or at least, that's how we live our lives.  Now, for those of us who are in love with Jesus and are Christ followers, we will live forever with Christ.  But while on this earth, we will not live forever.  The Bible says that God is who He is.  He does whatever He wants.  He takes life, and He gives life.  Who's to say He won't take your life now?  And we have no right to question God in any of this.  We have no right to say He is not just, when He Himself created justification in the first place.

The Bible also says that we are created to glorify God.  Life's story is not about us.  Life's story is all about God.  Go read the Bible.  From the beginning in Genesis to the very end in Revelation, everything is centered on God.  Everything is to worship God.  Everything is to Glorify God.  Life is all about God.  But we, and I, often forget that on a daily basis, and continue to go on living life like Life's story is about us.

So I really am thinking now about how selfish I have been living life.  I have realized this time and time again actually.  I work for me.  I am going to school for Networking for me.  I am trying to pursue a girl for me.  Honestly, even the majority of the ministry that I do is selfish.  I am not saying that doing these things are bad.  We have to do them.  I'm just saying that my motive has mostly been all me.  For my glory.  Not for God's glory.  The Bible says to do everything that we do for God's glory.

So if I were to die right now, I don't think I would be very proud of what I have done.  Sure, I have done lots of good things.  Lots of people do lots of good thing.  I'm sure that I have impacted lives in a good way.  But my motive has not been for God's glory.  That's the thing!

Honestly, I am afraid to step out and live life completely for God and for His glory.  I have fears that if I do, I will lose my job, get kicked out of school, get persecuted.  Because I don't want those things to happen.  Because I want to live life comfortably.  For me.  Because I think life is all about me.

I go to work, but say nothing or do nothing to tell them about Christ and His love and His Life.  I go to school, but say nothing and do nothing to people there about Christ and His love and His Life.  I go to the store, to a coffee shop, to the movie house, whever I go, and 99% of the time do not tell or show anybody about the love of Christ and His Life.  And I don't do or say anything about Christ because, again, I forget that life is about God, and not me.

So my prayer is that right now, starting today, I will begin to not forget that death could happen to me at any moment, and that life is all about God and His glory.  My prayer is that God will change and transform my heart and I really will begin to do everything that I do for God's glory, whatever that means.  Maybe if I realized that life was all about God and not me, I wouldn't fear as much.  Just a thought.

How are you living life?